When I first met Papaji in 1992 I wrote him a letter with a question, and in short it said -
"There's me and there's oneness, but as long as there's me, there can't be one, there's two, me and oneness? obviously something has to go, what to do ?"
If there's any wisdom that comes with age, it's knowing that I don't know anything, and to be ruthlessly honest with myself about how I live my life, and what I am up to.
Time is running out to live in fear and self deception. I recognize that fear and insecurity underlies the way I relate and make decisions. I can see that I am driven by this fear to keep busy, engaged and on the move physically and mentally. It's the reason that I embrace, believe and identify with something or someone, no matter how honourable, noble and good. Fear drives me to want recognition, validation and the need to think that I am in control.
And all of this fear is based on the greatest fear - the fear of not existing.
I realize that fear is the glue that holds all the pieces of who I think I am together.
Through all the suffering of living in fear, I find myself in vulnerability, and in that place, that place of not knowing, in that place where everything is shattered, there is the possibility, the opportunity to not reassemble the pieces, to not pick up the glue bottle in panic, and try to stick the pieces together, to make everything alright again, to feel solid and secure in my identity of who I am, confident, arrogant and in charge again.
To stop when I am in that vulnerability of not knowing, and not move from that place, then by grace, who I think I am remains, but it's no longer held together though fear ~ but love.
Don't entertain any kind of fear.
Only sit quietly and keep quiet.
This quietness is your nature.
It will bring you home -
Papaji
The purpose of life is to be at Peace,
to Love all beings,
and to know who you are.
Know your Self and you know everything -
Papaji
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